Dead Beat

Feel so maxed out. Mentally, and physically maxed out. Can't really think straight, can't really control my mind and body as the way I want at times.

Feel so very much to skip school, perhaps just catch a movie or catch my breathe. Whatever is fine....

I just need a break...And oh, this damn flu is not helping me feel any better one bit.

Grandma's 71st

Today was my grandma's 71st birthday. She didn't even knew it was her birthday till I called her to tell her I was going down over in the evening. Haha! Skipped IG for a simple celebration over dinner and a cake. Bought a cake for her but my uncle wanted to pay for it and made me took his money.

Here's some pictures =)

The cake which I supposedly bought

Grandma!

From left... Uncle, Grandma, Grandpa

From left...Aunt, Grandma, Uncle

Ohh, and we all wore formal to class today for Enterprise....Camwhored after that.

From left, Syifa, Me, Nabillah, Angela, Raj.

This time, with Umar at the back.

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A class picture awhile back....

Once we split, how will we be like then?

Flashback

Presenting, the DREAM TEAM.

From Left: Raj, Mao, Nabillah and me!

Lessons today was really fun. These are the people who made my day AWESOME. Not forgetting Naz's group with the topic of pre-marital sex for presentation. Epic!




Had lots of flashbacks today. Had one when I was on the train to Jurong. Past by CCK and thought of the times when I was growing up, around 4-8years old. How I learn to ride a bike in my own living room. (house was empty that time) How my fingers were slammed by the door cause of a strong wind that blew right in. How I always play pretend with the toys I have that animals were an army and cars were another and they would have a 'war' with each other. How I went for my bronze swimming course examination.

Then when I grew older, whole family shifted house to the condominium nearby, behind Lot1. Used to play in the 'flooded kitchen' when the maid was washing the floor. Always was the one who would volunteer to water the plants at the terrace and end up just wasting a whole lot water by playing. How I fell from the swing and knocked my head. How I had my first ever birthday party that I could invite my friends. Lots of other things happened too, too much to write it all down. Memories....

Following, it just triggered other flashbacks growing up....

SORRY

SORRY CHERMAINE WEI.

FOR BEING A "VERY GOOD" FRIEND.

Dreams.....Reality

Just came back from work, mood was totally @#$% today. Had a long, long bus ride back home....Had the time to reflect, sort out my thoughts.

Was thinking about dreams, family/friends, people's encouragements and yesterday's conversation.....

I posted this status on Facebook, "Chasing after your dreams, harder than it seems." I think that a lot of you will agree with what I say. It's never easy, but isn't impossible. Hmmm, but you guys will agree with what my Uncle, Jervon, replied to my post.....

"Finding a reason to live after you've reached your dreams is harder. Be thankful to always have something to look forward to, and chase after, each day."

Yeah, it's something that I really agree. So much so that I feel that mine's crap. I guess I wasn't really in the right frame of mind yesterday saying everything that I had. That's so me, always so rash. I've always felt that working towards things I aim for are like just so difficult, to the point it always pushes me to the verge of giving up. And honestly, I hadn't really been good at keeping to those targets. So I was thinking, why. And I FINALLY knew thought through the reason why. I never really made any dreams to fulfill. And by dreams, targeting for a shirt/bicycle/game or all these minor stuff counts as a dream. It should probably be something like "In 5 years time, I want to see myself graduating from NUS". That would probably qualify more to being called a dream. Yes, I want to make it big someday. By big, just something that would make my family, proud.

Wall of fame-ers of my family.... Alvin, Daniel, Jervon shu shu, there's still more. And I want to be one of those. Badly....Time to change, slowly but surely.

 

Alvin Cous

 

Daniel Cous

 

Jervon Shu Shu ( Right )

 

Jervon Shu Shu

This time, it's not just talk. I'm so sick and tired of the past, mopping about and over it. Watch me. Learn to trust myself, that I can do it. Learn to allow others to put trust in me.....


Wait and see, world.

 Did a test on learning style in school, and this was the results. Must say, it's accurate.... 

The physical (bodily-kinesthetic) learning style

If the physical style is more like you, it’s likely that you use your body and sense of touch to learn about the world around you. It’s likely you like sports and exercise, and other physical activities such as gardening or woodworking. You like to think out issues, ideas and problems while you exercise. You would rather go for a run or walk if something is bothering you, rather than sitting at home. 

 You are more sensitive to the physical world around you. You notice and appreciate textures, for example in clothes or furniture. You like “getting your hands dirty,” or making models, or working out jigsaws. You typically use larger hand gestures and other body language to communicate. You probably don’t mind getting up and dancing either, at least when the time is right. You either love the physical action of theme park rides, or they upset your inner body sense too much and so you avoid them altogether. 

 When you are learning a new skill or topic, you would prefer to “jump in” and play with the physical parts as soon as possible. You would prefer to pull an engine apart and put it back together, rather than reading or looking at diagrams about how it works. 

The thought of sitting in a lecture listening to someone else talk is repulsive. In those circumstances, you fidget or can’t sit still for long. You want to get up and move around. 



And ohh, sorry for not keeping the trust you had in me. Yeah, very sorry.

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I need to go for a run

A lot like.....

Class was hmmm..... fun today. Lots of craps and jokes in the DREAM TEAM. Or the dreaming team...Haha. Had Enterprise Understanding Test ( UT ). UTs are like exams in Republic Poly. So yeah...And well, kind of messed up with lots of important terms and keywords missing. Misread a question too....Grr, bloody caps.

After UT, was supposedly to be studying for the Science UT on Friday. But ended up watching The Fast & Furious 4. Lols, completely fail. About an hour later, went to Causeway Point for dinner with Mao & Haz. Talked quite a lot and well, got to say that I really admire Mao. Hahas....For his smartness, knowledge and attitude towards life. Someone that would be a good role model for others. Along with Benny, Umar, Syifa and a few others in class. Everyone has their own strengths in different aspects.

So after our little chat, went to take the train back. And, I saw this girl in Innova Jc. who looked like Briana. The hair, the way she's dressed, the shoes, the everything. Lols...Long time since I've met or talked to her. Hmmm, wonder how's life for her.

Is it as boring as mine? Zzz....

Don't know what to put as title, so I'll leave it blank.

It's been almost a good 1 month since I've last posted, which is kind of rare for me cause I'm always known to post random and stupid things here. Well, for one I think it's because I barely have any remaining time for myself

So......Life's been quite boring lately. Or rather if I had ANY life to start off with.

LIFE LATELY

• Monday, Tuesday & Thursday, IG training.
• Saturday & Sunday, 8 hours work at Tampines.
• Wednesday & Friday, straight home.
• No outings, ( movies, pool, any leisure & entertainment whatsoever )
• No calls, messages. ( Unless from Mum )

Haha....Well, every week's the same routine. But well, with the targets in mind of doing well in UT and excel in alps...this would be my life for awhile. In addition of the 2.1k or so amount we got to pay for the overseas trip for alps is already enough to make me a wreck. And that's EXCLUDING personal equipments like shoes and thermal clothes. Work, work & work!

Today wasn't much different, except for training which we did the high wall! Reminded me how long it has been since I went to ClimAsia for bouldering sessions. Man, how I miss bouldering. Haha, today's climb reignite the passion I had for climbing. This time, I should REALLY pick time for bouldering. This also reminds me that I hadn't run for a long time too. Lol! Damn....

 Hectic schedule, really makes me feel like I have to rant to someone....anyone! Hahas....Makes me miss my friends that I hadn't seen and/or talked for a period now.




Realises my blog is SOOOOOOOO.....B-O-R-I-N-G.
Need more pictures, less words.....