Hope you're doing well

* NOTE *

I am not emo, once again.

I know a lot of you guys out there will think I am but no!

That is so over and done with.

I just like to think & reflect now.

Those that have seen me lately will know that's true. 

I hope....

This blog is a place to write out what I feel like.

Ever had moments in life that are just memorable? It could be something simple & beautiful like watching a sunrise or something traumatizing like someone you love passed away. Yeah, everyone will have gone through at least something. Lately I've been thinking, recalling back these moments. Some put a smile on my face, while some pushes me to the verge of tears. They're memories that are just plain pure that it's joyful and memories that are well, depressing. I'm sure we all go through this and it's a matter of controlling our emotions.

I remembered how my dog, Rex used to come up to me and just starts to lick me all over, how he was always so hyper active always jumping and running about, how he was always there to cheer me up when I had a rough day, how he was abandoned as a pup and my friend and I took him in....How he died in front of us. He was named Rex caused of his personality. As in T-Rex. Was rather fierce at first, always barking and trying to bite people and stuff. But became our best friend when he warmed up to us. For a year and 5 months...We've been taking care of him doing everything we would to help him grow. Helping him to get over the fact he was abandoned. We believed he knew that fact cause of the way he was always growling and trying to bite the both of us in the beginning. Luckily Rex was just a pup then and didn't had any teeth yet. We wanted to give him the love he deserves and more. Rex felt that and finally opened up to us too. Yet on that very day, some guy ran over him with his bicycle. In front Nigel and I.......

Why didn't Rex ran away.
Why didn't I pushed him away
Why didn't I do anything

I guess Nigel had the right to hate me. Rex was literally broke in two. While both our hearts shattered into a million times that.

Don't you find it ironic that how some of the past that would made you feel like you're in heaven then would be your nightmare now. Guess that line of joyful and sorrow becomes blur. But well, I guessed we all moved on. We should move on....But still, those were the times. I'm very thankful for you ever entered my life =] Will never be forgotten!





You too, I can't forget.

Dear Whatever

Just came back from work like an hour plus before. Worked for 14 hours. Zzz....Mind's dead. Work later is 12 hours. Tiring but well, at least I can sleep well at night cause my brain is really just.....Not responding. But during the 14 hours today, I thought a lot. Funny how everything I thought just linked itself back to one, same person. The person who brought back faith in me.

Two weeks.
Two weeks is all it took to fall for you.

"Dear John"
"I miss you so much it hurts"
"A lot can happen in 12 months. But tonight, you're here with me."


All these sentences sound familiar? Yeah, they're in the ads for the movie DearJohn which was released yesterday. Although yes, it would be a nice show and I would very much like to catch the show with someone, anyone. Hahas....But.........
We all got to admit that it's not realistic at all huh. Look at the people we know that have been together as an item before. What was the ending like? Joke....If staying in a country as small as Singapore and still things don't work out, how would it that a long distance relationship will?? Well, maybe it'll work out for some but those are really, really, REALLY RARE cases. Unless you're talking about the older generation. My parents met each other in Secondary school and they've been together since then. Wow. But man being man, we all would long for what we will never have or almost impossible to have stuff.





Reminisce memories of you. Memories of me. Memories of us.

Hash House Harriers!

Try to make my post short today cause I'm seriously deprived of sleep. Hadn't been having any good nights or enough sleep. So yeah....Today my Uncle went back to Perth after his long vacation from work there. He came back to celebrate the Lunar New Year with us ( my family ). Have the urge to just go with him. After he departed, went back home and catch a bit of Naruto. Then, packed my stuff and changed into running attire to go with my dad to hash run. Hash run is a gathering of runners all over Singapore, regardless of race, ethnics or age to run once a week on Mondays through harsh terrains. Such as bashing through the forest, running across a deep and wide drain and so on.

So I went there as a guest and had to pay an amount of $20 as there were drinks and food for after the run. I was the youngest there and perhaps anyone closest to my age would be a good 25 or 26. The fun about the run is that the organizers would mark out a route using chalk, tissue papers and flour before the run. And they'll purposely set some routes which leads to a dead end which means rather than running alone, we're helping each other finding the right path to take. Sadly, my dad and I were lost with 3 other Caucasian runners. All because we took a wrong turn some where and didn't know. The other runners were too far ahead cause they're all very experience runners with what seemed to me like insane stamina and speed. Luckily for us, we managed to find our way and back to where we started....Which also was the finishing point. It was a bungalow and Bukit Timah. We all clean up and changed and gather around to what they called a hash circle.

It was more like a drinking/appreciation/punishment thing to me though. They made organisers of HHH, guests LIKE ME, returning harriers and for other stupid reasons to drink. I got 3 times, my dad 4. The cup was big, like 300-400ml. The first time I got 'punished', was cause I was one of the guest. Second, was cause they thought those who were wearing the Stan Chart Marathon running attire were showing off and I was one of those. My dad too...Hahas. Then last was cause the run was cause I'm chines. All because of the run called 'China man run' in a way of celebrating Lunar New Year. In addition, you had to gulp down the beer....Fast. You'll be like standing in the middle of the circle and they'll be singing 'Why Are We Waiting', HHH style. Lols, it was tons of fun! Although the adults there are quite vulgar and told loads of sick jokes, it was still fun. Something new....Hahas!

Well, so much for making it short. Ohh well....Anyways, gonna crash now. Nights!

I am not emo, I just like to spend time alone to think & reflect.

I seriously need to save up money to get a digital camera! Been missing out too much of beautiful moments with family and friends. But then again, there's also the notebook and bike I'm trying to save up for. Guess I'm not trying hard enough. Temptations around are just too well, tempting . Need to cut down on my spending.

Anyways, was at Brenda's house yesterday for steamboat. Thanks for the invite! Went there around 5.30pm with Jian Ming. Slacked around at first then started eating when everything's settled. Well, almost everything cause when we were about to start eating, Brenda suddenly remembered she had forgotten to cook the rice. Hahas! But still, we went ahead with the dish first. Awhile later, Byron came over. More crapping and then more of Brenda's primary school friends came and then Valerie and Si Jia. After dinner, played a game as called by Brenda 'Hey Jack' and Truth or Dare. The punishment for the game 'Hey Jack' was to take a mouth of beer. Don't know why but I keep getting punished. Lols....In addition, had a Bacardi Breezer and a couple cups of Absolut Vodka mixes. No, wasn't drunk still. Left Brenda's house only at 3am and walked home after that. It was really fun! Slept at 4 plus in the morning

Woke up at 8am to prepare the presents for friends for the Lunar New Year and Valentine's. Today, invited chums over for lunch. Byron, Pamela, Yuying, Kylie, David & Leroy to be exact. Talked and joked around. After finished eating, we went down to the play ground to play blind mice. We are reliving our childhood. No matter what you say, we still had fun! Hope we'll all stay tight throughout. Then we went to vivo after having our fill of fun. Pamela and Yuying got their converse sneakers for school! Super jealous....Ohh well. Hahas....So many things to buy, yet so little money!! Byron and me then left the group to go meet Jian Ming for a show after the 2 girls got their shoes. Watched 'True Legend". One word for the show.....VIOLENT.
Quite....Disturbing. Then, went to the food court for dinner once the show ended. Had guy's talk too...Hahas. Bros for life!








Today, I thought of this....
What's the definition of satisfaction? Everyone has their own definition of that. Some might want riches & fame, while others just want a simple & happy life with their family. Some want lots of luxury stuff while others might want to trade it all away to spend time with people they love. I've come to terms to make the best of what I'm given in life. I guess I wanted too much in the past. To a point that I've been blinded by what's really important in life. We all just got to be contented with what we have. Give it our all and don't have regrets. Yeah....

Cause it's just me

Hey! Didn't post for the past 2 days now....Well, been kind of busy I guess. Kind of. Hahas. Trying not to be alone being too bored. If not I'll let my mind wonder on ridiculous stuff. But yet to fulfill that, I ended up burning a hole in my wallet. A very, very big hole. Just yesterday, spent about $40 on food and arcade. Lols, boys will be boys. In addition, the day before that I spent around $80 on movie, Popcorn combo, food & arcade. Mostly food cause I ate at a restaurant.. Sigh....I need to really save up for rainy days. Hmmm....Should lock my money some where.

So on Thursday, I went out alone cause I couldn't stand the boredom at home. Phone's been very quiet of late too so yeah, just bored to the max. Went out around 12pm to have my lunch at Seah Im Food Centre and then went to GV to get ticket to the show 'Valentine's Day'. It wasn't as nice as I thought it would be but it's still quite a nice show. I probably was the only loser there alone. Haha! Ohh well....The show was at 1555 hours so I went to Toys'R'Us to find Noel. He's working there as a swayborad promoter. I got to play with his swayboard and yay, I figured out how to play with it. Hahas, so proud. But of course, that's after falling down a couple of times. Really bad, in front of other shoppers. Lols...Luckily the floor's marble, so there isn't any scratches on my arms or hands.

Today I went back to school with the thought of retuning Byron's belt I borrowed awhile back. But being me, I was dumb to bring the wrong one. Waited for him to end band and during that time, slacked with Jian Ming, James, Puvan and Guo Hao. Byron came out, we all went for dinner. Sumo House! Okay, the food ain't exactly heavenly but....Passable. After dinner, went to arcade for more JuBeat & Max Tune. Slacked awhile again after and then went home.





I had this quite interesting conversation with friends over dinner yesterday. Talking about beliefs and religions. I was wondering....Do gods really exists? I don't mean specifically Christianity but on general. Different religions have their own gods. Or so people say. I've been raised as a Buddhist but I've been skeptical about it since recently. Like if people pray to this god to seek protection against illnesses, prosperity of wealth and smooth sailing in life, what does it mean when majority of these people don't get what they ask for. If so, there won't be any poor people, people falling sick, disasters and so on now wouldn't it? Although deep down I want to believe in something,  I don't know what I should believe. Maybe could someone help me out?.....

钟嘉欣 - 发誓

 发誓从此绝无儿戏
让爱恋随心细味
余生爱着你
如死怕忘记共谁入戏
从未到访过梦内
不过心事仍可装载
还未置身这事外
换来漫天尘埃
难道有害何以不再
全意栽花仍不开
他朝养份再多不过无力爱
仍热切在期待
令我坚守也全是你
因这段情告别明日痛悲
而你是情深亦无人比
明知爱着你
难得再共你是谁造美
如若咖啡太乏味
苦涩甘愿尝得凄美
其实你早已预备
感觉曾经垂死
从未怯避连你双臂
全意张开来高飞
即使最后你竟撑到无力气
仍愿意没逃避



Addiction!

72 tenants of prosperity!

Second day of the Lunar New year surprisingly was more happening than the first. Lols...Set my alarm for 8.30am. I woke up, turned it off and went back to sleep. When I woke up, it was already 10am. Just 15 mins before relatives arrived at my house. You guys should know how we all look when we all just woke up? Lols...Quickly went to bathe and changed to something more.....apporiate. Went out only after luch. Did tthe same old same old wishing other relatives the same old stuff over & over. Went to this relative house of mine who had a baby boy name Chase! Chase Ong...Hahas. It's super cool....Maybe he'll grow up chasing after lots of girls. =P  But anyways he's super adorable! His smile was so sweet and carefree.

After dinner, went with my 2 aunts, 2 uncles and 2 cousins to watch 72 tenants of prosperity!

The show is HILARIOUS. Reconmanded to watch. Laughed through the entire duration of the movie. It has all the Hong Kong drama stars like Raymond Lam, Boscow plus other hits like Jacky cheung. But who cares about them when the show has.....

LINDA CHUNG!! It's been too long since I've saw her face on tv or anywhere else. Hahas! She's just so pretty. Some lucky guy got to kiss her in the show too....Grrr. Lols, ohh well. Being too high. Anyways, had a good laugh. All of you should go catch it.

Shall go on to bed now, there's still visiting to do tomorrow.
Goodnight!

Appreciate

Yeah, Mood didn't really improve today. So was pretty much bored the whole day. Chatted with my aunt again today. About plans dad have of migrating to Perth a few years down. The plan seem so good now, but it's so unfair to my pals. They've had their fair share of craps coming from me. Running away from a problem while giving away them, is unfair to me and to them. I want to do something for them too.

Really want to thank them for all the times they heard me crapped on about my stupid problems, the times I've showed you guys my attitude and all the moments you guys were there to make it fun and memorable. Thanks loads, really don't know how I'll get by without you all.

Lunar New Year!

So now's officially the start of the Lunar New Year! And of course Valentine's Day. Been receiving and sending wishes to people around. My messages are sent out real slow. Guess the network's jam pack now....Anyways, want to wish my previous tutor Kong Rong a very happy birthday too! Hope you're enjoying your stay in China now! How cool is that, having your birthday on Valentine's day itself? Hahas....

Hmmm, I don't really know why but my excitement of the Lunar New Year plummets with each passing year. In addition, the visiting also becomes lesser and lesser. This year, I completely feel nothing about it. Perhaps the only thing I'm looking forward to is all the junk food I'll be able to consume in front of my parent's faces and get away with it by giving the excuse of, "Ohh, It's the Chinese New Year what." Hahas...

So for the Eve of the Lunar New Year, I did pretty much what other normal families would do. Have reunion dinner, get together and chit chat. Before the dinner, I went out to pass a gift to one of my friend and then went down to my grandma's house to pass her some stuff my parents' wanted me to give her. When I got there, I was surprised to see my aunt there too. Hahas. Because she's seldom at home either due to work of her boyfriend. She's cool though. Pretty much still fitting into the generation of my age although her age says otherwise. We caught up on each others' life. She asked me where I came from previously and I told her I met a friend to pass a gift. She kept asking who is it and I guess I should have just told her straight rather than just smiling at her which gave her the wrong idea of me having a girlfriend. On that note, she oh-so-randomly said "if you have a girlfriend, must bring and show me leh. I treat you 2 meal!"
LOL. Loss for words then.

It's now 1am  and I should really get to bed. Tomorrow's going to be a long, long day. Anyways, wishing everyone a very happy Lunar New Year and a very happy Valentine's Day!





I want to be there. To help.
Just like before. 
But what's going on now, I don't know why.
Maybe our world is just too different
But please don't rule me out yet.
Not till you've seen who I am, what I am made of.

Enough Is Enough

Okay, I'm going to just let things go. It's tiring to keep hatred, sadness and what not inside.

I guess I don't have the right to be complaining so much too cause hey, I ain't perfect too. Everyone makes mistakes. I'm no exception. I know I screwed up quite badly too. Ohh well....Forgive & forget. But hell, forgetting is so much harder. For everyone I guess...Making peace with others, and myself.